What is the (positive) intention of the part of me that needs distance?
Is it that I need to be alone to receive downloads of information,
or is it because of the fact that that part is trying to protect me from being hurt because of rejection?

Yesterday, when entering the dance, I clearly asked my body what I needed, space or connection.
Connection came as the answer, and as the question had been asked, the dance floor could be entered without obstacles trying to keep others at a distance.

After my last meditation on Monday, I had a chat with the girl I connected with last week, asking her to do an exercise together, using the wheel of consent. My feelings empowered me to dare to be open about my struggles, and asking the question.
Intuitively I felt she would say Yes, but in the end, that’s not what happened.
Now I’m trying to figure out, what I have to learn from this experience. As my emotional guidance system has a reason for everything. Most likely it’s about handling rejection. Or perhaps my intention wasn’t clear enough to feel the truth.

For sure it triggered some sadness inside me, which could only be reached during ecstatic dance yesterday, as I wasn’t really ready to feel into it, when I got the answer to the question.

The part of me that’s afraid of being rejected, is living in a lack belief.
But I know that I have an abundance of LOVE.
And that I will never reject myself.