Intensive Tantra Retreat – Sunday morning
About my resistance in connection to women.I realized this morning that there is a lot of insecurity when making connections.Personally I need a lot of physical contact. I feel pain coming up, when I see other men, who seemingly have no difficulties with that. The insecurity doesn’t make it better. Taking initiative is lacking. Then […]
Epilepsy, Reiki and Dearmouring
Last weekend I followed a course Reiki 1. Since then I’ve been giving myself a session for about one hour each day. In my case, the balancing effect of the Reiki, is making my own chi flow.I feel sadness in my body since yesterday morning, and I’m also in an epileptic state. When startled by […]
In resistance
After finishing reading the Law of One material, I started reading the most recent book I bought,“I hope I screw this Up!”, by Kyle Cease.As I’m a fan of the Evolving Out Loud events, I wanted to checkout the book.While reading the first chapters, in which Kyle is still trying to figure out how to […]
Crystal Clear
You are far away, but I still love you. Today after Ecstatic Dance, I thought about you. And how to me, you represent the Priestess. Then I went to find the Priestess in myself, as I’ve always felt that there’s something inside me resonating with you, which makes me drawn so much to you. I […]
Incubator
Being born too early was my choice, the choice of my higher self.It may also be linked with the issues my mother was going through, not being seen.My Epilepsy is not related to a fall,but instead is a technique to cope with the abandonment,just like the astma I’ve had, and the numerous other times I […]
Sexual Healing
When I ask what is needed for my second chakra, then the anwer I get is Sex. A lot of sadness get released, upon coming aware of this. This brings my thoughts back to the dream of a couple ago, where I ended up kissing someone I love deeply. To me, she stands for the […]
A meditation on medication
Allowing sound to be produced,I feel into my body. I look at the teaming up of Source and Abandonment,from a distance, feeling the power of the Master. When I ask myself what else wants to be felt, anger comes up.Anger about the medication I have to take,which is taking away my power.Which has influenced me, […]
Sadness
I ask the sadness inside me its intention.The answer I get is to receive Love, to receive attention.I ask for its name.“The abandoned baby”, replies the Sadness.I tell it to wait while I ask Creativity for alternatives. Creativity comes up with the solution to go to Source,the generator of Unlimited Love, and let Source team […]
Soul Motion
In some tribes, during the pregnancy, people visiting whisper messages to the baby, while it’s still in the belly.What would people visiting your mother pregnant of you have whispered to you? You are the bringer of fire You are the bringer of light You are welcome. You are loved You are Love You are welcome […]
